The sun is shining on me,
a cool drink is at my side,
and an open book on my lap–
what more could I want?
As I sit here my mind switches gears.
Part of being on this vacation is preparing myself for a busy year:
My pulse quickens at the thought,
and a headache percolates behind my left ear.
So much stuff,
but I have to plan it now.
I have to gain control.
If I can control it all,
than everything will be perfect.
My mouth falls open,
and my eyes widen a bit…
What did I just say?
The logical part of my brain answers.
You just stated if you could control everything,
peace would reign.
Life wouldn’t be as hard.
Instantly my perfect “Christian-I-show-in-public” side chimes in.
Of course not!
God should control everything.
That is the only way to peace.
Even children know that.
*hums “Peace like a River”*
I want to dismiss it.
Before I have time to analyse it any more.
My mind is already unfolding my thought,
with trembling fingers.
It is with reluctance that I read the writing on the page:
You do not trust Me.
Of course I do.
No, you won’t give Me everything.
Well, there are some things that are best managed by me…
Just give it to Me. And trust.
So I close my eyes.
Focus on the sun warming my legs.
Cool drink by my side.
Sound of waves on the beach.
And pray for the strength to give all my plans to the Lord…
and gain His peace.
I know that it is a conversation I will have over and over again…
but that is OK.
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